Showing posts with label insecurity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label insecurity. Show all posts

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Why Do We Do the Work For Them?


Why do we do the work for them?

 I started thinking after reading the Week 20 post about delegation in the #savmp blog, and this quote from a book I just finished
"Adults need to model, ask clarifying questions, and help students reflect on and about their own routines, not do the work for them." - Margaret Searle, Causes & Cures in the Classroom p. 77 

Why do we do the work for our staff and/or students? Because we're afraid of what others will think if people under our tutelage produce work in need of improvement or worse. Because we think short-term.

Sometimes I catch myself thinking something to the effect of, "if my evaluee doesn't write a proficient goal or provide satisfactory evidence, then my colleagues are going to think I'm an unsatisfactory supervisor; what good am I if my people (or students) aren't proficient?"

So I do more than I ought to; I try to control the outcome rather than support and assist during the process. The goal that I'm concerned about becomes 90% my words and 10% theirs. They're "proficient," I pat myself on the back for "helping," and we repeat again in a few months. Nobody learns; we're not growing.

Ask questions instead of giving answers

If they don't do it themselves, then it comes at the expense of the long-term; the goal is always for them to be able to do it well without assistance. Start with them doing it themselves and let the doing it well happen organically. Guide by the side, ask questions, generate partnerships.

I shouldn't compromise the long-term goal to satisfy short-term insecurity.

Replace speaking with listening as often as possible

I should try to be the resource that makes them their own resource. In practice:

Student Discipline: Go through the handbook with them as you're determining consequences; when they match the offense with the proper consequence and then serve it, it becomes a lesson rather than a simple consequence.

Organization / Note Taking: Expose students to different examples of note taking and organization for the same topic. Show them an outline, word web, word cloud, venn diagram, etc. Have them decide which makes the most sense for them instead of mandating one style because it's what's always worked for you. 

They need to own it for it to be learned; if they don't own it, then it was merely taught; they won't remember










Sunday, September 9, 2012

Embracing Insecurity in the First 2 Weeks

My new position as Dean of Students/Teacher has drastically changed both my responsibilities and what my day looks like. The juggling act that is my new professional existence is physically, mentally, and emotionally packed, but it's allowing me to do exactly what I've wanted to do for two years; while having the chance to build a school-wide culture of achievement at the administrative level, I also have the unique chance to continue to find ways to enhance student learning at the classroom level.

But, it's hard. I've never been as professionally self-conscious as I've been over these first two weeks in my new role. There are two reoccurring situations and thoughts I have been experiencing constantly since school started that challenge my confidence in my abilities to perform, but rather than allow my own insecurity to interfere with my capacity to lead, I've embraced it as a motivator and used it as a reminder of the steps I know I have to take to succeed and impact the school positively. This self-doubt could overcome me, but I choose to spend my time and energy reflecting on the remedy rather than the problem. Do I have it all figured out? No. But, I figure the concerns and paranoia I've experienced two weeks in can't be unique, and maybe what I do to overcome them will help someone in a situation similar to mine.

It's the end of day where I didn't sit down or eat lunch, and  my "to do" list I made at 6:30 this morning has nothing checked off...

I try not to dwell on the outstanding tasks on my list and spend more time on the professional relationships I need to build in my new position; the paperwork and things I need to "get done" can be finished anytime, but the students and staff are only in school for a fixed block of time each day. If I fancy myself as a leader of people, then that's where my priorities must lie. I focus on being a resource to as many people in the building that I can, and I figure the rest will take care of itself. I've been capitalizing on many apps and digital tools to improve my efficiency and organization with administrative tasks, but that can be saved for a different post.

I was a full-time teacher here; I know there are staff members who talk about administration all the time. Surely they are talking about me and my decisions...

People are inevitably going to talk about what I do and how I perform in my new role, and instead of being a slave to my own insecurity, I use it to make sure I'm always in an optimal position to make the right decision and be in the right place at the right time. I use that self-consciousness to pull myself away from the office and walk the halls to interact with students and staff.  I listen to people, because I figure that if I let them know that I'm listening then maybe they won't need to find another audience in less constructive environments. If I'm going to be a topic of conversation then I might as well make sure people are talking about me for the right reasons. I welcome anybody talking about my work ethic, positive energy, or my genuine commitment to the learning that happens every day in and out of our schoolhouse. And, if they're not sold on me yet, I still have 38 weeks to get it done!

The bottom line is that my biggest takeaway from these first two weeks is that all I can do to alleviate my own insecurity is to lead by example, and model the elements of a culture of achievement I wish to see. Everything else is currently out of my hands.